Its plain to see that you're the only one for me.

Awesome date with my girlfriend! I was planning on lazing around at home, or better know as my no mandi day. But I saw beautiful rooms on iheartmyroom and became inspired to do the same to mine. So I called my girlfriend up and we went to Ikea. Had so much fun in Ikea. From dining tables to pretty frames. And I got myself a very nice and me-friendly red laptop table. Dinner at Bedok's KFC. Daddy said he doesnt feel like painting my room tomorrow. Hmm so I guess the revamping of my room will have to wait another week. Boo.

Oh ya. We bumped into this guy right here. Ohmygod, Affiq's so tanned right now I was taken aback! And his hair is so weird, its something that he'll probably call, "rambut konek". Haha. Anyways, it was nice to see you Fique!

Oh, and my Halim Bestie flew to Jakarta already. Yeap, he just got back from Australia yesterday morning at 3am (and he called me at 6am just to say "Ja! Aku da balek! Aku rindu kau sia" Haha). He called me at the same time I tried to call him so we both didnt get through. What are the odds? Anyways, I called him again and he said he was at Tanah Merah already, and he was late so I couldnt see him off. Hmm, I cant wait to meet him when he gets back. Its been too long already. And the Dine Bestie too.

But all in all, today's a good day. With a girlfriend like mine, you dont need a boyfriend!

:)

ps: I still miss my Fah though.

Just wanna be with you.

Accumulated in just a few months time. 3 to 4 inches only. Whats the point in wearing 1 or 2 inches cause it doent give you height at all. Kept on telling myself I need more shoes for work. Need to buy shoes, even when Im broke. But when you think about it, its true you know. I do need more shoes for work. Am going to print these photos to put on their shoe boxes. Cause even if I wear them often, I keep them in boxes, Im OCD-ed like that. Am eyeing that oh-too-gorgeous for words laced up from Charles and Keith. 5 inches, Im ready for you.

You're like a dream come true.

Last Saturday was it? Swimming at Tampines Swimming Complex. With my two babies. No nicer pic cause Fah's too tall and Syahmin's too short. Shes so manja with Fah its annoying. Im supposed to be the manja one ok! Shoo Syahmin, shoooo!
A Thursday we met after work and school. Pastamania-ed. Oh nice, really. Talking animatedly with hands and all and my ring flew and fell near a staff. She just looked down at my flown ring, look at her manager, looked at us and they started smiling. Dine, Ct and Alin laughed until they were crying and their stomahes hurt. Thanks eh guys. Haha. There was this sign that said, "Be careful of flying pizzas". Pun intended. Hoho!





Great Eastern Womens Run. 5km in 1.5hrs. Haha. It was a nice walk on a Sunday morning. But then, we went for Popeyes at Changi Airport straight after the "run". So much for losing a few kilos. Haha.

Shoes update next! Ikea date with girlfriend update next!

Its like I really dont know what to do, you know? Should I ask the friends? But whats stopping them from lying for him, you know? Or should I just let it go? Take it at face value, so they were there, so what, correct? It was a couple of months ago afterall. But still, is 100% honesty all that difficult? I told him already, you want to do shitty stuffs or go out with another girl or whatever, JUST DONT LET ME FIND OUT.

My god, boys. Cant live with em, cant live without em.

Last thing, KANINABEYCIBAI.

Ok I feel better.

MARRIED MEN

No matter what a man says or doesn't say;
Do or doesn't do,
If he's married, he's married.

The man got married for a reason,
And stays married not because he doesn't know how to get out of it
But because that is where his life is
And generally in life we do what we want to do.

The marriage, even if he complains about it,
is his comfort zone.
When you marry and build a life with someone,
it's major.

It IS where your life is
even if it has difficulties.

It's a serious commitment and
it comes with a "Keep Out" sign for others who want to intrude.

His marriage may not be perfect,
but no marriage is perfect.
Above all, a woman should never believe it
when a man minimizes his marriage or its importance in any way.

These men are kidding themselves
they're still married, aren't they?
The longer most people are alive,
the more they think about things like
the golden rule or karma or whatever you want to call it but it's very true.
What we do to others will come back to us.

So we don't want to bring pain to other people
particularly when children are involved.

If a man is going to become single through divorce,
that has to be his OWN decision and without any influence from another woman.

If you really care about a man,
think long and hard before bringing temptation into his life
which is often all too easy to do.

Even friendly flirting can become dangerous
if carried too far with a married person.
In the long run, if you are "meant" to be with that man
it will happen somehow, some way, down the road perhaps.

But don't hold your breath.
Get out there and live.
He made his choice already - he has a life.
Pining for a married man is not a life for a woman.

I know its hard. Cause really, I was never easy to love anyways. I tormented you, hurt you like no other and made it so hard for us. But still you stayed; you did the best you could to keep our love strong, even through times that I really thought we couldn’t pull through. Its difficult for you, to know that the people you care about don’t want to see us together. Im not good enough for your family and your friends think Im just a bitch who hurts you and brings you down. I know that your friends don’t like me, they tell you that I take advantage of you and that all that is wrong with our relationship is entirely my fault. But no, you stood up for me. You keep on repeating that these are all misunderstandings, that Im nice and sweet, when even I know Im not both. You constantly cajoled me and remind me that they are wrong, that what matters is what we feel for each other, that you don’t feel the same way as they do, that you love me no matter what, that whats important is that we are blissfully happy with each other and they should all die.

I stayed through your Olevel results, through not getting Aerospace, through not getting Corporal, through not getting into SOC and I will stay through autism. Yes its not easy for me to understand why you cant and dont want to dream big. I want to further my studies, I want a big house, I want luxuries but to you, here and now is enough. Im slowly feeling my big dreams slipping away from my grasp but its really ok, it really is. I may want all that, but at the end of the day, those are just that, Wants. But what I really Need, is You. Your love, your guidance and our happiness. I will be ok, I will learn to be contented with what I have now, as youve pointed out. We will be ok. But is only ok enough? I guess this will take time. I understand youve had so many disappointments that you dont want to dream big, that you are scared to risk your heart all over again. I know you feel its unfair that I always get what I want. But baby, you have to understand, I work hard to get what I want too. I know, I realized that Im fortunate to have brothers who dote on me and parents who will give up everything to get me the best possible. But not all that I have or I am is because of them. I studied and I sacrificed too. Of course I want to further my studies after Diploma, but I cant bear to see my father working so hard when hes over 60. I need to contribute financially to my family now, its about time don’t you think so? I wasn’t born with a silver spoon in my mouth, honey.

But at the end of the day, we both know that we are made for each other. We will work through our insecurities and come out tops. After the awful Marina Barrage date, we sat in the car at my carpark and talked it out. Fah, you have to know by now that you can talk about anything with me. I don’t like it if you keep things to yourself and only burden yourself with your own thoughts. I want you to share with me. I need you to share with me. Your sadness is mine too. Please keep me in the loop.

I know what you have done for me and I cant thank you enough. You love the imperfect me and I keep asking you why. I don’t know how you can still love me through all the shits that Ive put you through. All the harsh words I shouted to you, all the physical and mental abuse. You proved that you are here to stay. Rest assured that Im here to stay too.

Thank you Huzaifah.

And I’ll love you for always.

I wont see you tonight part 2

ISO is such a pain can? Im sick. Has been a long time since I was sick. And now my nose is dripping like a leaked pipe, throat feels like sandpaper and there seems to be a rock band jamming in my head. I WANT TO GO HOME. But I cant and you guessed it right, all because of this bloody ISO.

Anyways, it was very nice and caring of Fah to come and pick me up after work yesterday. I was ever so cranky and snapped at him a couple of times. Haiz but isnt that normal? HAHA.

My sis-in-law and I went for the Great Eastern Run last Sunday but Ive yet to upload the pictures. Will update more on that once Ive uploaded the pictures ok.

Its been a long time since I bought any new clothes or shoes. That itself is a huge achievement for me.

Im hungry now but my throat does not permit anything to go down. Should have brought bread from home but I was late this morning, just like any other day. Work starts at 9 but Im leave home around 825. And I'll reach work around 910. Tsk. But my manager comes in at 10 so its fine.

AHHH SICK LA. I just stepped out of the office for a moment to blow my nose. I cant blow my nose in front of people cause Im weird like that.

Will be working tomorrow. Pffft.

I miss my boyfriend eventhough I met him On Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Yes he surprised me by waiting for me at the lobby of my workplace on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. Damn sweet la this guy. HAHA!

Ok enough.

I WANT THEM RINGS.

YAY WE'RE AT THE MARINE PARADE LIBRARY RIGHT NOW TAKING PICS WITH THE LAPTOP! NO MORE BOOK-INS WOOHOO!

:) :)

I want to meet my boyfriend for Starbucks today, can?

every girl needs a man.....

The kind that will treat you right. The kind that searches for you with all his heart. The kind that respects you and adores you.

Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her. One who can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls. Because he’s smart enough to know that he already has a girl who has everything that he wants, needs and more.

The right guy will never leave you lonely and wondering. You will always know where you stand with him. He will be your best friend and lover. He’ll call you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night and maybe even tell you a bedtime story to make you laugh or talk to you until you fall asleep.

This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s just to go to the store to buy you your favorite ice cream. He’ll buy you flowers just because it’s a Wednesday and will notice your hair when you’ve gotten it cut or have gotten all gussied up specifically for him.

You deserve a guy who will cherish you. He’d never be afraid to smile to his friends when you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one”. He’d appreciate you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little… like the little love notes you leave him.

He’ll be chivalrous. He’ll wait for you when you’re falling behind, open doors for you and will walk you to the door to make sure you get in safely. He would defend and fight for you and never bail on you when you needed him most.

The right guy will call you beautiful instead of hot, he’ll kiss your forehead when you’re down and he’ll be the one who will love you for everything you are.

Never settle for anything less.

A great weekend, definitely.

An online conversation I had with Anis Rifdie. Haha! 9 months Di, 9 months! The only thing stopping him from going is the two kids on his MSN display pic. Anyways, DI I IS VERY EXCITED FOR YOU! GO GO STEAL HER! hahaha ok enough now.

I bought THE bag from Esprit. Yes THAT one. Its not exactly what Sakinah and I saw at Jurong Point but its just as hot. I LOVE MY NEW BAG. Oh oh and the awesome bracelet and matching ring that I'll be wearing for Kak Yaya's wedding. Haha! I just got my pay on Friday and half's gone. But the gone part includes what I gave Mum and Dad and also my transport expenses, so its all good :)

AH I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET FOR MY BOYFRIEND FOR HIS BIRTHDAY! I was thinking of getting him the DSLR but shit it cost too much. The Raybans but shit if I were to buy him the Raybans, I wont have enough for food and other expenses. Haha. Shit man, what to get himmmmmm?!

Its only Monday 0950am and ISO has already started being a pain in my huge ass. Urgh. Until we pass the audit on the 15th of November, ISO will continue to be a pain in my ass. And yes, failing the audit is not an option.

This weekend was awesome. 4 times, 6 hours. HAHAHHAA my Dine Bestie will laugh her head off when she sees this. Eh eh, cant wait to meet my 2 besties this Thursday yay yay!

Ok done, back to my ISO manuals, Quality assurance manuals and forms. I HATE ISO.

My life would suck without you

This boy will be gone for 1month+. And to think that he was alone on his last night, tried to call me twice but I was outside watching teevee and my handphone was on silent mode inside my room. To think that my Halim Bestie needed someone to talk to and I wasnt there. I feel like shit.

But at least we got to talk for about half an hour before he really needed to pack, and he felt a wee bit better. Sighs. Hes really a good man, weird and annoying most of the time, but still awesome boyfriend material. Damn you stupid girl for leading him on.

Anyways, take care my dear. It'll be weird not getting messages and miss calls from you (read: he'll give me a miss call and expect me to call from my house phone all the time!). I expect a gift from Australia! Do have fun.

Come back soon. I miss you alreadyyyyyy :(

AWESOME 22ND MONTHSARY WITH THE BOY TODAY YAY YAY!

Me: B, you like your girlfriend to be tall or short uh?
Fah: I dont care, as long as its you.

oi oi why you have to be so sweet uhhhhhh? :)

I LOVE YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH LA HUZAIFAH! HAPPY HAPPY 22ND AYANG!

Post will be editted with pictures soon! yay yay :)

EDITS//

YAY we have matching watches! Just that mine is pink and his is black. I IS HAPPY.

Anyways, blogger's being a big bitchy baby and I cant upload anymore pictures. Pffftss. More pictures on my multiply :)

500 days of summer with A bestie.

Rachel: Better that you find this out now before you come home and find her in bed with Lars from Norway.
Tom: Who's Lars from Norway?
Rachel: He's some guy she met at the gym with Brad Pitt's face and Jesus' abs.

Thanks for the night babe. I love our nowadays often meet-ups la! :):)

Ok I dont wanna fuck Huzaifah anymore, HAHA (read previous heading to understand better).

Hes a jackass, I know, but Ive always knows hes a jackass, since more or less 4 years back, and I stayed, so hes my jackass, back off.

I know, I know its completely disrespectful of him to tell me to fuck off, and since he doesnt curse a whole lot, I know that he meant it when he said it. HAIZ YES IT HURT A HELL OF A LOT thank you for asking.

But alas, we're just fucking retards who sacrifices for each other too much, make each other cry till our eyes and throat gets swollen, but still undeniably in love. FUCKING RETARDS, I TELL YOU.

So I hope things will get better. I miss him a whole lot. And I realized I probably started the whole fight anyways, WHO ELSE RIGHT? Im the fault in this relationship, yes I know.

Ok ok I know I tell him to fuck off all the time, without even thinking twice about it. But when it bit me in the ass, I then realized how much it hurts eh?

Hes planning an awesome picnic for our 22nd this Saturday. Im hoping it'll turn out good cause Im really looking forward to spend the time lazing in the sun.

ps: ups and downs, baby but we'll make it through right? "forever and ever babe."

FUCK YOU VERY MUCH, MUHAMMAD HUZAIFAH.

@ 1654.

I know, I realized that was a cheap shot about your parents, but Im hurt. And Ive got trust and respect issues.

And anyways, Im a good person, damn it. Screw it if he/she/them cant see it.

Hey boyfriend, this Saturday better be a good date for us.

@ 1600.